feeling better

I suppose I should post that from the previous post things are better. Jason is still OOT, but at least I'm dealing with it. I've got Nate home now....so that makes things a little easier. We're going to be busy tomorrow day and night, then Jason said he should be home Wednesday evening. I'm thinking of taking the kids to see a movie.....should be fun. I just pray that we all continue to be healthy....and that God gives me the strength to make it through a few more days!

thats it for now

I'm frustrated and stressed.....need to surrender!

Okay, I figure this is a safe place to vent. As no one really reads this anyway! So Jason is working a lot this week....and won't be available till next Wed or Thursday. Probably my luck, I'll get a call on Wednesday and he'll say, "its not looking good, and I'll be home Friday or maybe even the week after that". I pisses me off....I hate it when he works this much.....Nate's off to boy scout camp this week.....I've got the girls too myself....the business too myself....no break for me.....I'm just so damn frustrated.

Oh sure, as Jason would say " you only need a little bit of time to bounce back" or "honey, go do what ever it is that you need to do, go some place with a friend" but does it not accure to him that things like that (a week to myself) cost money!???!! WTF! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I'm so pissed right now. Sure, he's working during the day, but then he's got the nights off....to do what ever he wants. He go's out w/ people he's working with, plays has a good time.....must be nice!!! piss off....

I need to surrender this anger and frustration though....cause its not good for the girls and me. I want to be a good mommy....so I surrender all of this.....and pray for peace for the next week to go well.